separationally anxieted?

At a dinner last night, a friend asked me if I get separation anxiety when I am away from Naddu. The question took me by surprise because one, I always have been a very big champion of me-time and very honestly I had not thought of this afflicting me yet, it being too early and all and him still being “new” to me. I started saying that I haven’t been out too much as yet- just the random errand or outing with friends or k and it usually doesn’t last for more than an hour and half but then I stopped, realizing with a start, that yes, even in that short time, I do feel a weird gapey unfamiliar feeling in my stomach somewhere, which gets dispelled a tiny bit when I think of him.

Momhood is a funny thing, I’m realizing. It takes so much of what you thought you were and turns it upside down, in a nice chaotically happy kind of way, leaving you breathless. You are taken aback by the sheer force of the change- at how effortlessly it creeps up on the norms you carefully construct for yourself and how it dashes them to bits, and the scariest funniest part of it is that, this time round, you don’t mind at all.

So yes, despite the fact that I still like my me-time a lot and the fact that Naddu is only three weeks old,  I was quite surprised to discover that in this respect, I have been successfully mommified.

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5 thoughts on “separationally anxieted?”

  1. i love your insight – how is it that you always make motherhood sound like such a joy while telling us about your sleep deprivation and separation anxiety? 🙂

  2. Mommified! That’s a lovely way to put it. I know I must have said this before (mom’s tend to be a little repetitive…) But I could never leave Iman. Even when she was two years, I was always freaked out, but we live and learn, and in time learn to let go.

    I am sure of one thing, no matter how old they get, WE will always have separation anxiety.

  3. Hi. Just wanted to let you know that I am coming to Karachi for a couple of weeks. It would be nice to see you and the little one. Let me know if it would be possible to meet.

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