So Nadi doesnt like school. It’s been almost one month (with wayy too many holidays in the middle) but that magical moment when he realizes how much he loves school over home has, despite repeated assurances that it will, not happened.
Every morning is a heartbreaking experience of being asked so very politely to “please” take him to Nanna’s instead. Or the park. Or to the toyshop. Who can say no to a well mannered little boy who says please anyways?
Everyone, and I mean literally every single person assures me this is normal. “He is having such a great time with you, do you blame him for not wanting to go to school, where attention is so divided?” says one very nice mom, who also had a hard time. “He needs to learn to be independent” states another, “he is too attached to you, I think” One part of me feels like snapping back asking what is wrong with a 2 year old little boy being attached to his mother? And the other part of me is torn- what is she is right? Am I damaging him in some way? what if this is doing more harm than good this whol preschool making them social thing?
I ask k and he says, he will be fine with a confidence I just can’t feel. I am aware of my role- I am forever the Bad Cop. The one who MAKES him do stuff, like put away his toys and goto sleep at an hour he would rather be playing. I am the one who LEAVES him at school, hardening my heart to the quvering pout and the sad eyes, and the very polite, please nanna paas le jao nadi ko. I dont want him to associate me with the sinking feeling of school days. I want to run in and rescure him but I steel myself against it, why I quite don’t know yet. I am waiting it out, holding my breath, for it to click to him that this is just for him that I am doing this. He is a smart little kid, he should figure it out soon , right?